Last week I had my 31 week prenatal check up. I anxiously awaited as me and my littles sat in the room waiting for my doctor’s arrival. I had a hard time getting Bumble Bee and Honey Bee to sit down. I’ve mentioned before how I hate going to the doctors with my kids. But that’s besides the point. I started to bribe them with treats, if they would just sit down and were good for mommy. As I bribed them the the nurse walks in. She does the usual, and checks my blood pressure, Fuzzy Bee’s heart beat, and measures my stomach. We make small talk when she cuts me off and says “at your last appointment were you measuring big”? I sat up clumsily, because you know…I have this big belly and all. “I don’t know, they didn’t tell me”, I responded confused. “Why is everything okay”? She shakes her head yes, and says “you are measuring 4 weeks ahead, but I suck at measuring so the doctor will probably do it again”. Then she walks out.
Stay Away From Google If You Are Pregnant
If you haven’t read here before, I’ve struggled with anxiety in the past. Lately, I’ve gotten a pretty good handle on it, but there are times when I become very anxious. This incident was no different, I instantly became anxious. So of course in my anxious state it felt like the doctor was taking forever. Once she arrived and we talked she was about to walk out with no mention of me measuring ahead. Before she left I blurted out “the nurse said I was measuring big”. “Ah yes, when you schedule your next appointment make sure you tell them to also put you down for an ultra sound, I just want to make sure you aren’t carrying a huge baby”.
Okay great, now I had to wait until my next appointment to know what’s going on, I thought. Then my next not so smart move was to consult with Dr. Google in my anxious state. Yea bad move. I grabbed Honey Bee and Bumble Bee and rushed out so I could get to my car and Google my little anxious heart out. Basically by the time I was done reading what all the possibilities were as to why I was measuring big I was sitting in my car bug eyed and rocking side to side (okay this part in an exaggeration). But that’s how my mind felt. Then I started thinking the worse…Google always brings out the worse in me during my pregnancies. Yet, I keep going back for more torture every time I have a weird symptom.
With Honey Bee (my first child). I was a hot anxious mess. Since she was my first I had no clue what pregnancy was supposed to be like. There were so many times that I had to bring myself back from the edge of insanity worrying about every twinge and ache, because of Dr. Google. With Bumble Bee I did a little better, but I still had a few Google melt downs. Then with this pregnancy I was doing great. But then this incident had to happen. My ultra sound isn’t until next week so it’s going to be a long wait.
Anxiety Has No Rhyme Or Reason
The thing is I’m sure everything is fine. I’ve always carried big. The predicted Honey Bee to weigh 10 lbs! She only came out weighing 8 lbs 12 ounces (at 40 weeks when she was born), and Bumble Bee was measuring ahead as well he was 8 lbs 8 ounces when he was born at 38 weeks. I make big babies. So what’s makes this pregnancy any different? The answer is nothing. But that’s how anxiety works, it gets you to focus on nonsensical things and blow them out of proportion for NO REASON AT ALL! I’m chalking it up to hormones at this point, but I still need to watch for things that trigger my anxiety and Google happens to be one of them.
Anyways, this was a short rant on why pregnant women should stay away from Google. Do yourself a favor and just stay away. LOL.