I’m a little late posting this, but I still wanted to do an update on how my postpartum life is going. I’ll start with Sugar Bee. She is doing well, she is crawling, and getting into A LOT of things around the house. She is very pleasant baby with an easy going nature. She also loves to try to keep up with her older brother and sister. I can definitely see that she has a feisty side to her, LOL. Sugar Bee is the best surprise that I’ve ever gotten. As of today is started crawling. I wasn’t ready for this! LOL.
Postpartum Depression and Anxiety
So the first three months after giving birth were going really good. I was working out, eating healthy, and just in a good place. That changed when my husband left for 2 months for his military job. I was really worried that I wouldn’t be able to handle three kids by myself. I dreaded the day he left because I knew that if I stretched myself to thin, my postpartum depression would return. And guess what? It did. It didn’t strike until a few weeks before he got home, but I found myself in a really dark place.
I’ve also realized that we need to seek counseling as a family (I may do a post on this later). I didn’t realize it until recently that the sudden death of a close family member last year really took a toll on all of us. Not only did this family members death cause grief, but it caused a great deal of anxiety amongst us. I know it has to do with HOW our family member died. I contacted Military One Source and they referred us to a bereavement counselor. This wouldn’t be the first time we sought counseling, so I’m really looking forward to our sessions.
When I first had Sugar Bee I started doing the eating portion of the 21 Day Fix. I did lose weight then it stalled for a bit. I haven’t weighed myself in a few weeks but last I checked I was at my pre pregnancy weight. However, I need to get below that, so I that means I would like to lose 31 more pounds (ideally 50lbs). I’m just going to continue eating my well rounded diet and see where I’m at in 6 more months.
Breastfeeding has been going well. We had a difficult time the first two weeks because I found that Sugar Bee wasn’t getting enough milk so I had to supplement with a pumped bottle of milk. I have started her on solids which is always fun. She was definitely ready for them! She loves to eat and it is great! I plan on breastfeeding for however long she would like.
Okay, I’m going to be honest. Since this last VBAC recovery has been interesting. I’m still dealing with some pelvic discomfort (which I’m seeing my doctor soon about). I feel like my body is still recovery from how fast Sugar Bee came out. Despite that fact I’m still happy that I had a VBAC. Other than that, recovery has been good. But since I had two VBAC’s so close together I really need to focus on caring for my body. I can just tell that my body is DRAINED. I wasn’t even done nursing Bumble Bee when I found out I was pregnant with Sugar Bee.
I’m trying to enjoy this postpartum period because Sugar Bee COULD be our last baby. I don’t want postpartum depression to steal the joy and memories of this time. I kind of felt robbed on enjoying my postpartum bliss with Bumble Bee because my postpartum anxiety and depression were so bad.